What time is it Mr.Wolf?
Where did time go?
9 months
5 books
4 work trips
4 music concerts
3 births
2 weddings
2 holidays
2 housewarmings
3 months remaining with…
6 weddings
2 housewarmings
1 holiday
I am glad I am leaving in January, what I would have missed, had I, the year before.
Gnome
My pioneer gnome, Wilfred, was amputated clean beneath the knees some 2 weeks ago, not only that but he lost the pointy red tip of his hat as well.
The maid was giving him a good dust down when he slipped out of her hand, needless to say I was absolutely devastated.
Wilfred cannot be replaced.
Fear
Everyone fears.
I have been having bad dreams about going away and have been trying to rationalize why I feel this way, because technically I am living my dream and I mean, it is not as if I am a stranger to uprooting and leaving Singapore for extended periods of time, it’s just that this time, it seems so much more difficult.
I have ruminated about why I am feeling so unsettled and worried and thought that perhaps writing it down will help me put things into perspective, so here they are in no particular order of worry.
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Capabilities: Fear that I am not going to be able to keep up with the rest of my course mates, that the only reason I made it this far is because I held on to my four leaf clover
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Personality Change: Fear of having to actively meet people all over again. Like it or not, I have re-embraced being an introvert
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Failure: I cannot afford to fail. Too much time, money and effort has been invested
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Passion: Fear of how long will I be able to hold on to the remnant shreds of altruism I have left, of never letting this becoming ‘just a job’ in the future
Yes, fear is irrational, but we are emotional beings and we are going to feel it whether we like it or not.
But how we deal with that fear, is what separates one from everyone else.
Whimsy on a whim
It feels comforting to have a space online again, though at the same time, oddly unfamiliar having to contend with a new blogging provider, change is good.
